I'm 31 today

Today is my 31st birthday! I have thought about this for weeks now. I have contemplated the what if's then where would be; pondered on the joys and triumphs in life; and come to grips with the failures and unfulfilled desires and promises. I know that my life has not been perfect but I have seen many more good days than bad. I know that the owner of that happiness is Christ and I am honored to be grafted in that elite heritage.
Recently I have started working with pre-teens and teens at the church and maybe this has allowed me to reflect on my age and my past a little more, but I just can't help but wonder what it would be like to have made better choices. It makes me want to convince the younger generation even more about the importance in the things they watch, the music they listen to, the people that they hang with and the things that they do with their time. I know that my life would have been consumed more with work for the Lord as apposed to sulking in the depression of my parents divorce or the young love saga of my relationship with my now husband. Relationships come and go; if they are worth while than they will last through all things and all others will wither away like chaff. If only someone knew the words to use to convince me at that time that my decisions were important, that I could be used by GOD NOW not ten years from now but NOW, and that I should dream big and not settle for less because of lack. Don't get me wrong I love my life but to have it to live over there would be changes. Those changes would be spiritual ones. I would have been more committed and connected to God. I feel like I am getting a late start. Eventhough I gave my heart to Christ at 7 I did not commit my life to Him until I was in my 20's. "SIGH" I must take hold of this late start and make an impact. Help others learn from my error and direct others to the cross of Christ.
Thanks to all who have impacted my life. I appreciate your advice, prayers, love, and compassion.
Lord I love you! My hope is in you Lord! Use me this day and always as I valiantly stand in the promises of your Word and the righteousness that is found in Christ alone.