My cousin Whiteney is the BIG 15 now! Shannon and I have cared for her from the time she was a newborn. She has not had the best family life and for a while her weekends, holidays, and summers with us seemed to be enough to influence her in the right direction; BUT lately she has shown so many signs of depression, anger, resentment, rebellion, and hate that it scares me. We found out almost a year ago that she was cutting herself. She got with the wrong crowd, listening to some heavily demonic music, and with parents that did not stop it she started to cut. Her arms were so awful for the longest time. She has some scares but I am certain that her hurt on the inside is much worse than the hurt on the outside. This weekend she stayed with me and Pete while her parents went to Tennessee to visit family. She now has an iPod touch which CONSUMES her time. (Pete said that she should just buy an altar to place it on because it has definitely become an idol for her) She has placed status updates on her myspace that say things like, " I don't know why I should go on, I should just end it all now." and her screen name was " Death's victim". What do I do? I cried my eyes out to her. I talked her ear off all weekend about God and how much I loved her. She told me she did not think that she was going to make it to Heaven. When questioned why, I just got silence! She is crying out for help but she loves the rebellion too. She loves the boyfriends and the smoking (yes her parents allow her to smoke) and hanging out with underaged drinkers and future drug addicts of America. She was on such a different path for so long. Where did I lose her? When did she become so different? I am not giving up hope. I know that God is at work everyday to save her soul. My prayers and encouragement will continue and I will still always love her. She needs all the prayer that she can get. I am determined to see her turning her focus to God and serving Him with her talents and her whole heart.
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Oh Shawnna I'm so sorry to hear such a sad story about W and things going on in her life. I think you are doing all you can do and I hope that she allows God into her life and we all know he can change her!
Many many prayers for her and for you to be the guidance she needs. It's really hard when parents don't care and allow such behavior. I don't have any magic wand or words, just keep praying and trying, it's all you can do!
Thanks Onna! She needs so much prayer! I know that God loves her more than I do and that He will prevail in her life as He has mine.
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